Re: approval addiction
Posted: Fri Nov 27, 2015 2:22 pm
Dear, Mia, Monique and all the other ladies and others reading this thread.
What has struck me the most about this is seeing how blind I am and how not seeing the correct sin is so damaging to our progress, I found this discussion from Jesus and Mary really fitting to this situation that happened here and felt this was a good place and time to share it with others like myself who still are not looking at ourselves accurately. The discussion is called 'Sin and Redemption'.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkRTB60wSKk
Dear Kathy, thank you for your words have found them very helpful with admitting and accepting the truth about myself about this issue. With regards to superiority and inferiority I just wanted to add what I have found the last few days. A lot of the events I have attracted are what I have been 'wrongly' angry with God about which was like feeling 'inferior' like god wanted to bend me to my knees and for me to feel nothing and inferior to everyone and that's how I had interpreted it. I had felt this as punishment up until I am now realising God isn't wanting me to feel inferior but rather to help me see I am equal to others and this addiction to feeling entitled and superior isn't loving and that 'bringing me down' to an equal place with my brothers and sisters is loving. So I don't feel I have inferior emotions anymore with regards to entitlement but more like emotions about feeling just the same as everyone else and equal, which is loving from Gods perspective to be treated equally but when we are used to feeling like we get more than that it feels unloving to be stripped of the extra things we feel we deserve or are owed. So my 'sadness' is about being equal rather than less than. Which feels horrible to admit. I don't know if this is the same for everyone with entitlement injuries but have found that for myself I don't have feelings of inferiority but rather feelings of feeling just equal and have been seeing that as a bad thing rather than a beautiful thing. Not sure if that helps but just felt to add it.
Dear Mary, I just wanted to say thank you again for your words, I actually feel I can make steps to change now and accept the real sin. It is feels like a relief in some ways even though it has opened the wounds and I wish you and Jesus the best and thank you again for everything you do.
Laura x
What has struck me the most about this is seeing how blind I am and how not seeing the correct sin is so damaging to our progress, I found this discussion from Jesus and Mary really fitting to this situation that happened here and felt this was a good place and time to share it with others like myself who still are not looking at ourselves accurately. The discussion is called 'Sin and Redemption'.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UkRTB60wSKk
Dear Kathy, thank you for your words have found them very helpful with admitting and accepting the truth about myself about this issue. With regards to superiority and inferiority I just wanted to add what I have found the last few days. A lot of the events I have attracted are what I have been 'wrongly' angry with God about which was like feeling 'inferior' like god wanted to bend me to my knees and for me to feel nothing and inferior to everyone and that's how I had interpreted it. I had felt this as punishment up until I am now realising God isn't wanting me to feel inferior but rather to help me see I am equal to others and this addiction to feeling entitled and superior isn't loving and that 'bringing me down' to an equal place with my brothers and sisters is loving. So I don't feel I have inferior emotions anymore with regards to entitlement but more like emotions about feeling just the same as everyone else and equal, which is loving from Gods perspective to be treated equally but when we are used to feeling like we get more than that it feels unloving to be stripped of the extra things we feel we deserve or are owed. So my 'sadness' is about being equal rather than less than. Which feels horrible to admit. I don't know if this is the same for everyone with entitlement injuries but have found that for myself I don't have feelings of inferiority but rather feelings of feeling just equal and have been seeing that as a bad thing rather than a beautiful thing. Not sure if that helps but just felt to add it.
Dear Mary, I just wanted to say thank you again for your words, I actually feel I can make steps to change now and accept the real sin. It is feels like a relief in some ways even though it has opened the wounds and I wish you and Jesus the best and thank you again for everything you do.
Laura x