Jealousy

[LauraR]

Thank you all for taking the time to post this information so clearly and succinctly. I have been seeing the co-dependent relationships I am in. Because of some breakthroughs I have had over the past few weeks - I have been able to see the truth of them, but believe I have only felt surface emotions.
I have felt sad, ugly and judgmental - which means I have not got to the causal. I have even had jealousy towards my daughter. I am so thankful I was able to identify the feeling almost immediately and fortunately I have withdrawn to work on the issue. I do feel shame about it. Somehow I believe I must experience shame before I can repent. Like feeling the sin brings shame. This must be part of the self-blame. I can feel the error but don't know quite what it is.
For the first time I think I am actually feeling my hurt self - if only slightly - there is a different quality to the emotion that is difficult describe at present.
Thank you again for this opportunity for growth.
LauraR

[BrendaHoffman]

Thank you both for posting on this topic. I have jealousy toward many people, especially women. With this discussion you have brought some issues up that I hadn't been aware of. I never imagined that telling someone "I'm jealous" was an angry statement. But yes, it makes sense. It never feels right when someone says it to me.

[Arvarna]

Thank you for posting this. It is quite a big issue for me. I remember 5.5 years ago in a personal discussion with AJ and Mary, they mentioned that there was a lot of competition within the females in my family. At the time I was feeling 'what'?!?! Confused. I didn't ask them exactly what they meant but reflected on it myself afterwards. I started to recognise that the feelings between my sisters, mum and I *were* really competitive and jealous etc (and now can see my Dad's partner and my Nana and Grandma also have these issues too). I was confused because I viewed it as normal. It was normal for me and my sisters to say horrible things to each other and want to bring each other down, many times yelling and screaming these things at each other. And it was normal for all of us women in the family to say things that on the surface might seem ok, but had a really horrible motivation behind them.

Thank you again for this post. It's definitely an area that I still need to work on as I have not grown in this area at all since AJ and Mary first pointed it out.