Re: Jealousy
Posted: Sun Feb 07, 2016 4:29 pm
Thank you all for taking the time to post this information so clearly and succinctly. I have been seeing the co-dependent relationships I am in. Because of some breakthroughs I have had over the past few weeks - I have been able to see the truth of them, but believe I have only felt surface emotions.
I have felt sad, ugly and judgmental - which means I have not got to the causal. I have even had jealousy towards my daughter. I am so thankful I was able to identify the feeling almost immediately and fortunately I have withdrawn to work on the issue. I do feel shame about it. Somehow I believe I must experience shame before I can repent. Like feeling the sin brings shame. This must be part of the self-blame. I can feel the error but don't know quite what it is.
For the first time I think I am actually feeling my hurt self - if only slightly - there is a different quality to the emotion that is difficult describe at present.
Thank you again for this opportunity for growth.
LauraR
I have felt sad, ugly and judgmental - which means I have not got to the causal. I have even had jealousy towards my daughter. I am so thankful I was able to identify the feeling almost immediately and fortunately I have withdrawn to work on the issue. I do feel shame about it. Somehow I believe I must experience shame before I can repent. Like feeling the sin brings shame. This must be part of the self-blame. I can feel the error but don't know quite what it is.
For the first time I think I am actually feeling my hurt self - if only slightly - there is a different quality to the emotion that is difficult describe at present.
Thank you again for this opportunity for growth.
LauraR