The nitty gritty
Posted: Fri Jul 15, 2016 2:57 pm
Hello,
I've begun a process of repentance but I'm getting stuck. Perhaps someone has some insight. Below is a snippet of the outline for the Forgiveness and Repentance Concepts talk given in the assistance groups 2014. I've numbered the points myself to help with my question.
So far for me, I've recognized the facade/addictions that caused me to act unlovingly. I've emotionally felt the remorse of what I've done, but now Im stuck. I've asked God to show me why I acted the way that I did, but Im also suspicious of myself because I don't want to quickly skip to the next part, perhaps I need to feel more fully the deep truth of how much damage my actions caused. I'm also hesitant to stay there in case I'm just stalling and maybe self punishing by making myself go back again to how badly I've treated someone (although I don't think I'm self punishing).
Anyone been through this process and have some suggestions?
I've begun a process of repentance but I'm getting stuck. Perhaps someone has some insight. Below is a snippet of the outline for the Forgiveness and Repentance Concepts talk given in the assistance groups 2014. I've numbered the points myself to help with my question.
My question is, what is the difference between point 2 and point 4? And isn't step 3 the actual forgiveness part where we release the causal emotions that made us take that action? Perhaps I'm getting too much into the nitty gritty of it.How do I repent?
1. First emotionally recognize, experience & feel ALL of the addictions and façade which we or others
created to avoid our own hurt
2. Then emotionally experience & feel ALL of the damage we did to others or ourselves while in our
addictions and façade
3. Then emotionally experience & feel ALL the emotions associated with the reasons why we made the
choice to hurt others or ourselves rather than feel our own original hurt
4. Then recognize & emotionally experience & feel all of the feelings of hurt which we created in others
& ourselves due to our choices to avoid our own original hurt
5. Then we need to follow the forgiveness process! Forgiveness cannot be avoided!
This is a reversal of the process of the hurt we chose to create in others or ourselves!
So far for me, I've recognized the facade/addictions that caused me to act unlovingly. I've emotionally felt the remorse of what I've done, but now Im stuck. I've asked God to show me why I acted the way that I did, but Im also suspicious of myself because I don't want to quickly skip to the next part, perhaps I need to feel more fully the deep truth of how much damage my actions caused. I'm also hesitant to stay there in case I'm just stalling and maybe self punishing by making myself go back again to how badly I've treated someone (although I don't think I'm self punishing).
Anyone been through this process and have some suggestions?