Desire vs. Addictions
Posted: Fri Dec 18, 2015 11:27 am
Hello again,
Ho w can i distinct my passions and desires from my addictions?
I´m a person with lots of different interests. I like to play music (in different bands), to do all sorts of climbing and mountaineering, doing photography, like to hear music, play table tennis, go skiing and ski hiking, be a bus driver, like to examine the universe, doing computer stuff, giving lessons in maths and physics, work on my emotions... ...
Each of them i like to do, and the more i grow the more there is no need do to any of them (except bus driving if i want money for living, but that is another issue). Also the law of attraction brings the whole stuff to me, i do not (as i grow) consciously force anything to happen or suffer in doing so. The most really important thin though is the growing of my soul in love, that is a huge passion since i was a teenager i think.
Due to that i feel i have a very happy life. I´m working not too much and mostly when i do i like it. I have a lovely relationship.
So from my perspective there are three possible options of truth on this:
1. I am to a degree in my passions and desires, and LoA shows that to me
2. I am in denial and self delusion about myself thinking i am happy but only keeping my addictions going.
3. It is a mixture of both 1 and 2, which is the most likely case.
When i listen to AJ and how humble and sincere he is and was to get to the condition in which he is, there must be addictions going on inside myself. Some things are telling me this. For example
My body has some (mostly smaller) issues, which appear and disappear. My girlfriend, which i believe to be my soulmate have some health issues, so they are also my issues. I´m blocked towards god most of the time although i try to connect with him. I have some major issues towards women due to my childhood, which i am often not aware of, ...
This things telling me that there is a lot of work to do.
So by listening to AJ and Mary sometimes i feel "hey i´m in a good state, go further with that", but sometimes i feel like "i´m probably be in the hells", whereby honestly i feel more often like i´m in good condition (compared to the "average" or lets say compared to the condition i earlier imagined to be in my age). But this may be a facade-like statement too in the end.
So i appreciate to be in that forum to get connected to people which are more developed than myself so that i can learn.
What is your experience on that topic?
What do you feel, am i honest with myself or am i´m in huge denial? Please be truthful with me if possible.
Ho w can i distinct my passions and desires from my addictions?
I´m a person with lots of different interests. I like to play music (in different bands), to do all sorts of climbing and mountaineering, doing photography, like to hear music, play table tennis, go skiing and ski hiking, be a bus driver, like to examine the universe, doing computer stuff, giving lessons in maths and physics, work on my emotions... ...
Each of them i like to do, and the more i grow the more there is no need do to any of them (except bus driving if i want money for living, but that is another issue). Also the law of attraction brings the whole stuff to me, i do not (as i grow) consciously force anything to happen or suffer in doing so. The most really important thin though is the growing of my soul in love, that is a huge passion since i was a teenager i think.
Due to that i feel i have a very happy life. I´m working not too much and mostly when i do i like it. I have a lovely relationship.
So from my perspective there are three possible options of truth on this:
1. I am to a degree in my passions and desires, and LoA shows that to me
2. I am in denial and self delusion about myself thinking i am happy but only keeping my addictions going.
3. It is a mixture of both 1 and 2, which is the most likely case.
When i listen to AJ and how humble and sincere he is and was to get to the condition in which he is, there must be addictions going on inside myself. Some things are telling me this. For example
My body has some (mostly smaller) issues, which appear and disappear. My girlfriend, which i believe to be my soulmate have some health issues, so they are also my issues. I´m blocked towards god most of the time although i try to connect with him. I have some major issues towards women due to my childhood, which i am often not aware of, ...
This things telling me that there is a lot of work to do.
So by listening to AJ and Mary sometimes i feel "hey i´m in a good state, go further with that", but sometimes i feel like "i´m probably be in the hells", whereby honestly i feel more often like i´m in good condition (compared to the "average" or lets say compared to the condition i earlier imagined to be in my age). But this may be a facade-like statement too in the end.
So i appreciate to be in that forum to get connected to people which are more developed than myself so that i can learn.
What is your experience on that topic?
What do you feel, am i honest with myself or am i´m in huge denial? Please be truthful with me if possible.