Hi Arvarna
A while back I realised that I do not believe in God, not the real God anyway. Having been indoctrinated into believing in the punishing God has been a huge struggle for me, only to emotionally arrive at the false belief that God as described by Jesus, Mary and the people in the Padgett Messages, does not exist, that there is no God of love. It was a painful realisation, because for the past five years I falsely believed and convinced myself, that I was having a relationship with God, but as you might remember from the Assistance Group, I was having my addictions met through some very dark spirits.
What has been really great for me, is to start reading the Padgett Messages from cover to cover, as they are all about a relationship with God and how to develop it, through faith, prayer and repentance. The benefit of the messages is such, that many of the spirits who had not known about God, or have had false beliefs about God, begin to get to know God through James's help and the help of the spirits who he introduces them to. So what you get to see is the progression that needs to take place, in order to have a realisation that the merciful, loving God does exist and that it is possible to have a relationship with God. Some examples of this process are in the following messages:
James's father conveys a message to James from Mackey and Taggart who are in darkness and desire to be helped. James explains to them how to pray, which is really powerful and similar to how Jesus introduces spirits to God's Love:
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If there be a God, and if that God has a love for me, and is ready to fill my soul with that love and make me happy and full of light, and whether I receive that love or not depends upon my will, then if this is all true, I will that God give me this love with all my strength and desire."
https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/html ... 41231A.htm
Helen is a go-between for Taggart and Harvey. Taggart presents an excellent argument for the existence of God through his own experience:
https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/html ... 41231A.htm
Mackey is grateful and never will forget James Padgett's kindness in helping him to see the light:
https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/html ... 50722I.htm
Taggart is grateful for what James Padgett has done for him and the wonderful results that followed from the advice given to him:
https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/html ... 50722J.htm
In these you get to see the stages that the spirits go through, starting from the pain and darkness that they are in (LOC effect), not having faith in God, to receiving God's Love. They help me to learn about the process of developing faith.
Additionally, after listening to, and now transcribing a recording Jesus and Mary did on Law Of Compensation, Repentance, Forgiveness & Prayer....
Session 1 on God's Laws:
https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/audi ... r%20P1.mp3
Session 2 in answer to my question:
https://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/audi ... r%20P2.mp3
...I am realising that unless I have a true desire to see the full extent of my sin, or have an awakening to my sins, I have actually no hope of developing a relationship with God. The relationship begins with a willing heart to see how we have harmed others, ourselves, God and the environment; and actually feeling the depth of that harm/sin, followed by the repentance and forgiveness process. Even though it feels so undoable for me at times, I also feel like I have a map now of what I need to do, if I am seriously wanting to have a relationship with and thus faith in God. The assistance group talks are well worth a re-visit as the keys to developing a relationship with God are all in there, but the lessons must first be understood. I am only just beginning to understand them intellectually myself, over a year after they have been given to us.
I hope this helps.
I wonder if anyone has gone through this process of awakening to sin and then engaged the higher Laws, and thus began to have a relationship with God as a result?
Sandra