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Hello from Sydney

Post by Eloisa M » Mon Feb 01, 2016 4:18 pm

Dear all,

I am Eloisa, 58 years old and live in Sydney and only now got the courage to post about my feelings and thoughts on this forum, I was waiting to be in a better condition before introducing myself. No need to say that it is related to an addiction of mine, in which I seek for approval from people. I thought I could not handle to receive feedback because I certainly would take it as judgment and punishment, however now I realized and felt in my heart that God doesn’t judge or punish us thus I am here to grow in love and open to receive feedback. Although I still have fear about it I will write here anyway. I am starting to realize that I don’t need to show people through my facade that I am a good woman anymore, in reality I am sick of controlling people and environment in order to strongly resist emotional pain. I really feel disgusted with my facade and addictions that I am aware of at this stage in my life since I embraced DT into my life 3 years ago.

I also found out that when I feel remorse for my sins my prayer feels real in me or when I cry in grief I can feel God’s love entering me, it is like the error in a particular topic leaving my soul giving more room for love to enter. One of my friends from the spirit world, Abraham, said once “Love is poetic” “Each tear will be replaced with love provide tear is sincere” he said this two years ago and only now I can feel the truth in it.

Being sincere without fear bring me closer to God and being close to him is the only thing I really want to prioritize and the next person I want to be close to is my soulmate Gilberto who currently lives in the spirit world since passed away forty years ago. I am so happy about meeting him again in 2014, my sweetheart, we are in a relationship for the first time in our lives, and it is so cool!

I thought about telling you my story on the abusive environment where I grew up as a child but I gave up on this idea because it doesn’t matter anymore, what really matter now to me is that I will be able to heal all those hurting emotions permanently and one day be able to forgive all people that hurt me in the past, really forgive them inside my heart. This is going to be so beautiful, to get to the point of remembering about the traumatic event and yet not having the pain associated to it. The remembrance would be like looking at a scar as just a mark on the skin that doesn’t hurt anymore.

I am not longer waiting for my parents’ repentance in order for me to forgive them, I am the one who needs to repent for my sins. On the other side I started to feel compassion for my parents since they are God’s children that were harmed as well. My mother in return started to feel this little change in me and she even started to call from overseas which she never did before. God has helped me with my emotions immensely and will continue to do so, to me the beauty of this process is, I started to feel no longer a need for my earth mother’s love, which I angrily had desired in the past. Feeling the truth that my mother is a free person in God’s eyes has helped me to free myself from resentment and feeling love from my real parents is awesome!

I want to thank the forum’s team and J&M for this gift of love to all of us.

Eloisa

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Pierrejoseph » Mon Feb 01, 2016 11:47 pm

Hi Eloisa,

thank you for taking the courage to step in and share a bit about you and your experience with God.

I really loved that part about sincere prayer and share absolutely this experience with you, a true feeling of remorse and wanting to correct the wrong done to others addressed to God is a sincere prayer that is always answered with lovely support, intensity. truth and God's Love when asked for sincerely.

This is beautiful:
“Love is poetic” “Each tear will be replaced with love provide tear is sincere”
It seems you are now in conscious relation with a spirit died long ago who you believe to be your soulmate? Did I understand you correctly. If so, how such a relationship between people in 2 different realms does this materialize in your daily life? I mean do you easily hear or see and communicate with him as you do with other spirits? Are you very meduimnistic?

Hope you will find your time here beneficial for your progress.

Pierre

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Eloisa M » Tue Feb 02, 2016 10:04 pm

Hi Pierre,

I met my soulmate when we were in high school, 40 years ago, he passed away in a tragic accident but he always was in mind all this time. In 2014 we met again and since then we talk everyday, share experiences, go places together, laugh loud about nothing, listen to music, talk about God and the universe he created, which is our favorite subject. One day we are going to be together in physical form, although this can be done in the sleep state but I only have a couple of memories of this instance.

Eloisa

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Pierrejoseph » Wed Feb 03, 2016 2:41 am

Fascinating !

Eloisa you write :
In 2014 we met again and since then we talk everyday, share experiences, go places together, laugh loud about nothing, listen to music, talk about God and the universe he created, which is our favorite subject.
You say this as if it is very normal. I find it quite unusual and beautiful ! Would you mind to relate a bit your encounter in 2014? How did it happen? Did you open suddenly to your mediumnistic abilities and awareness of his presence and desire to communicate? Or you were already quite mediumnistic, and you felt he was attracted to you again i 2014?

This is so beautiful as what you live every day illustrates there is no barrier between the 2 realms.

Would be lovely to remember the sleep state experiences as well...he. :)

Pierre

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Eloisa M » Wed Feb 03, 2016 7:22 am

Hi Pierre,

We were in the same class at school, I remember feeling very happy when around him, I loved his personality being an extroverted teenager. It was in the 70s...those pants and shoes we use to wear so colorful! Everyday at school I looked for him just to see him before the bells ringing, and I noticed that he did the same although we felt shy to talk. But I couldn’t understand my feelings at that time, we used to sit next to each other in the classroom. God just put us together in the same class (now I can feel this) we were next to each other but so apart in reality. We couldn’t be together in this life since I was from a poor and black family and he was white and well off.

One day I got at school I couldn’t find him, I started to feel an angst that something went wrong, then I found out that he had passed away in a tragic accident, it happened when he was swimming in a river during the Easter holidays, I couldn’t say goodbye to him. I lost that beautiful person, I lost my heart (I cry as I am writing this as it still hurts) I need to grief his death, my death as I lost my heart that day and missed my soulmate all my life, carried the weight of a bitter resentment about it.

A week later I saw him at school smiling to me, it was so real that I waived back to him, and shocked when I realized he was a spirit I got so scared so he went, I never saw him again. So life went on for both of us. I always thought about him the only person from that time in my life that I used to remember with warm affection, and couldn’t explain my feelings. I suppressed all my feelings as we all learn to do very earlier in life.

After learning about DT in 2012, I started to feel that my soulmate was not living in this physical realm anymore, this idea gave me much nostalgia and grief. I started to listen to love music more often and cried with the lyrics while I was driving to work. I was single at that time and said to God that I would only have a relationship again if it was with my soulmate. Since then I never felt any desire to date again and stayed single concentrating in my desire to attract the man God created for me. I trust Jesus on this and had faith in God that it will happen one day even though it would take decades, time was not a problem for me.

I am mediumnistic (still a work in progress though) and I connected with my DT guides who also helped me to heal some of childhood injuries, I started to look after my soul, spirits I was in addiction with went away. Then in April 2014 I was reading the Padgett messages, it was one of Helen’s letters to James when my soulmate started talking to me saying that we are soulmates. At first I thought I was delusional but then I felt something of truth, in my soul I knew it was truth, then the love songs on the radio made me cried more and more. I was missing him and he was right there with me! he used to say I am here with you always, I can’t see him but fell him close to to my heart. I blamed God for his death but no anymore though. Only recently I became less in addiction towards him thus I can feel more of him. He was trying to communicate with me for about 20 years! From the spirit world he was helping me to find DT, J&M’s teachings. I am really grateful for it!

Now were are getting to know each other, I felt the hurt he felt when he was struggling in the river before dying, he is telling me his story, the things he likes, his projects, his guitar and how God is so caring and loving to all of her children, he says things like we can hear the harmony in the universe and add our guitar sound and compose beautiful songs. He came to the AG with me in 2014 and we were just walking outside the venue, it was this beautiful cold night and he said look the stars God created for us to make beautiful love songs.

Thanks Pierre for asking, this helped me to feel more emotions I have repressed about this experience with my soulmate.

Eloisa

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Pierrejoseph » Wed Feb 03, 2016 9:45 am

Thanks for sharing Eloisa, this is so beautiful and touching and inspiring to me too. I am glad I asked.

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Max » Wed Feb 03, 2016 9:50 am

Hi Eloisa

I'm so glad you found the strength to introduce yourself and share some of your story with us. You have such a beautiful and honest way of sharing your story and your desire and love for God is very inspiring. I think it's wonderful that you have been able to meet your soul mate again and I can see you and Gilberto creating many more beautiful love songs together under the stars.

With love

Max

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Marina Smargiannakis » Wed Feb 03, 2016 3:39 pm

Hi Eloisa,

Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is very beautiful, triggering, and so very inspiring.


With Love,

Marina

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by grant » Wed Feb 03, 2016 7:28 pm

Oh, what a beautiful story, thank you so much Eliosa for sharing . . . it gives me so much hope and optimism about soul mates . . . :)

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Re: Hello from Sydney

Post by Eloisa M » Fri Feb 05, 2016 9:14 am

Hi Max, Marina, Pierre and Grant,

I really appreciate your kind words! Thank you.

Eloisa

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