My name is Linn, I am 38, I liv in Norway, close to Oslo.
I moved back to Norway last year after living in Israel for about 4 years.
I grew up often feeling that God was there somewhere and I used to pray for help and protection in rough times as a child. My family life was difficult and unloving. Thankfully my mom got interested in self development and thaught me that I can work through my inner pain.
I have been blessed with freedom to make up my own mind about God and Jesus. I never felt that Jesus was God. As I remember, my mom told me he was an enlightend man that thaught people about love.
I remember my first emotional experience with Gods Truth, lying on my bed and listening to a duett with Celine Dion and Barbara Streisand, "Tell him", when I was about 20 years old. When I listened to the lyrics a penny dropped for me. Love is a gift! Up until then love(approval) had been something I wanted/needed from other people. As I realized this I was completely overwhelmed by a feeling of love and joy as my tears were running. I had never felt that way before. That changed how I related to others from beeing needy to more giving.
After spending a long time in the Sinai desert(1999), constantly outdoor night and day, by the Red Sea or inside the mountain vallies, spending most of my time alone with myself and God or with people with a strong faith, my faith in God became the strongest as it had ever been. I did not understand why at the time, but after listening to the Divine Truth's youtube channel I started to understand the prosesses I had been through. Hanging out in the desert forced me to face my personal truth. I think it was because of the monotone surroundings with nothing to draw my attention, I was automatically drawn inwards to connect to the reality inside me. Thankfully I had enough faith and gourage to let my emotions flow, and it led me to experience some Divine Love. I also connected to some of my desires, like handcraft and painting.
Studying at the Rudolf Steiner Academy learning about the human growth and development from conception until adult (from Steiners perspective) was like going through my childhood once again and gave me the chance to prosess some emotions. I thought I had fixed myselft after that. Off course I came to realize I had only scraped the surface
I made some really poor choises regarding men, abortion, work. I felt like my soul was sinking into darkness and I burned myself out(because of all my resistance of being overwhelmed by shame and deep deep grief about the terrible things I had done to myself and others).
When I for about three years ago reached the point where I was unable to keep getting my addictions propperly met or feed my husbands addictions, having experiences with spirits scaring me in the night, being constantly triggered by my law of attraction, the rage was building up so much I was scared of how much I wanted to hurt others, I searched in desperation for help. That is when my mom sent me a link to Divine Truth Youtube channel. When I heard the videos about prosessing emotions, it really confirmed my own previous experiences, and gave me a much deeper understanding of it. That really helped me to strengthen my will to feel my emotions again and having the courage to feel the pain. I am so incredibly thankful for the work Mary and Jesus is doing to help us help ourselves. It feels hard to even grasp how much they love us all.
Now I am in a superchallenging situation, going through seperation from the man I was married to, where I feel my big challenge until now is to have enough self love, keeping good and healthy boundaries and stand firm with them and not let my fear control me and to be honest and loving in the same time (I felt like I was more honest than loving
...). I have fear that he might succeed to convince people with authority that I am mentally and emotionally unstable and a member of a dangerous Jesus-cult and succeed to take the kids with him to his home country and keep them far away from me and make them religious as he himself have resently become. I am even scared of posting this in case it is visible to outsiders and potentially can be used against me. But I have a desire to be a part of this forum, so I will.
When I a couple of days ago reminded myself that this is my law of attraction I could not help but weep.
But in spite of the fact that I feel powerless and helpless and that life is unfair I feel strengthened and supported by choosing to stand up for what I feel is truth and loving (which has been a huge challenge in itself to even trust myself while being terrifyed of making mistakes).
I am still afraid of spirit attacks and feel like I am not able to protect myself or the children against it. I also struggle with how to relate to the kids in the middle of this, if and how to talk about any issues we are facing. They are still very small. I have been struggeling with resistance to praying too...but I can feel my will is growing and I have had a long period now where I naturally pray almost every evening with the children. Sometimes I feel sencere, sometimes not. And when I do I feel some love flowing.
I feel I am really getting to know and feel the real me (or the wounded me) So this is were I feel I am at at this point.
I have been a member of DT facebook groups, where I felt really scared to post anything. After reading your terms of use I was very happy and exighted an I felt that this forum is a safe place to share and wonder. Thank you very much, Nicky, for making such a loving space for us all.
I am looking forward to see what my law of attraction brings me in here, and getting feedback in order to help me see what I am currently unable to.
. I have been doing that, in portions in this matter....and it is getting easier 
....I just chickened out on being truly humble the last couple of weeks when my ex was around searching for anything he could use to proove my emotional instability. Now I feel like I missed a good oportunity, bacause it was a huge trigger for me. But I know I'll get back into it.