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Hello from Florida!

Post by Allegedly Dom » Sun Jan 10, 2016 6:27 am

Hey everyone, my name is allegedly "Dominick" and I say that because this is really just the 'strawman' name that was given to me by my parents upon my birth where I, like most of you was bought and sold on the stock exchange and given a Social Security # before I could give consent to it. I grew up in an average lower middle class family, my parents were trained Catholics but not full believers. They tried to get me to go to church since I was little but I despised it for some reason (I think it had to do with suppressed pain from me being circumcised or the untruth of it all). They weren't big on religion having lost a little girl before I was born to a drunk driver. They never pushed religion or their beliefs on me and I never really questioned the subject but always found certain cliche things to be absurd like "Jesus walking on water" and the story of "Noah's Ark". I always rebelled against going to school as well since my first day of kindergarten. I always felt like it was a prison and against my very nature. I would kick and scream crying and begging my parents not to make me go. I never agreed to the Pledge of Allegiance if I could help it and refused to take my hat off during that satanic worship, lol.

We got into a car 'accident' when I was 7 where I was ejected from the truck we were in after being T-boned by F350 Diesel truck going over 60mph. Our truck barrel rolled several times and a few times mid air we were hit so hard. I had taken my seat belt off a split second right before the crash out of curiosity for the impending collision. I woke up in a ditch on my back with a broken left ankle and pain everywhere. I Later discovered this is my fathers law of attraction; having him been in 34 MAJOR car accidents none of which were his fault. Also I would find out I had settlement money from this accident that I held onto until I got out of high school and spent to buy my own Aquarium business much like the tv show "Tanked" but smaller scale. Miraculously we all survived the wreck which made me think I was here for a higher purpose in the back of my mind.

Ever since 9/11 I delved into conspiracy research after not being fooled by the simple fact that steel buildings can't be destroyed by fire. This led me to the Zeitgeist Film series, Jacque Fresco's Venus Project, Bruce Lipton 'Spontaneous Evolution' Cellular Biologist, free and clean energy sources etc. Needless to say I had very few friends in the public institutional indoctrination conformity system as a result of trying to preach conspiracy Truths...

When I graduated High School I was so happy to be free that I couldn't commit to going to college for Art (because I sketch pretty good, or so I'm told) for 40 grand a semester for 4 years! So I got a regular wage slave job in the restaurant industry and just blew my earnings on my pleasure and entertainment. I soon used the car accident settlement money to buy an Aquarium Business with a friend who later turned out to just scam me for my money. Then I got into scuba diving and became more aware of my health and resented my 200lb miserable body. So I began exercising and eating "Healthier" lean meat and cooked starches. I got into Free Diving which helped me realize the power of our breath alone and was able to hold my breath for about 4 minutes my first try. This blew my mind having had asthma growing up and had to use an Inhaler but outgrew it years ago. I never took prescription drugs besides the occasional tylenol or mucinex-D for the occasional flue that I got constantly while in middle school. I haven't taken any pharmaceuticals since my early teens nor been to a hospital; I realized the medication did nothing for me and I never got headaches ever again. The only professional nutritional advice I got growing up was from my pediatrician who told me to cut back from whole milk to 2% when I was in middle school because I was fat which did make a big difference. My parents let me eat whatever I wanted growing up, Ice cream cones or pizza for breakfast most days.

I had a girlfriend when I was 16-18 over in Canada which I met through World of Warcraft. This was my first "Love", but I was her third. We grew extremely close (as close as you can get through a long distance webcam relationship lol) and she flew down for a week and took my virginity even. When she left I cried so hard, the week she was here was like heaven to me, don't think I've ever been happier. But when she went home I couldn't bare it. Our only choice was to move to one or the others home country and get married to do so. She was going to Architect school, I was too scared of commitment to leave my country and family not sure if she was my soul mate or not, intimidated by her claiming to have been in love 2 other times and still keeping contact with one of her previous loves as a friend. When we got back to our miserable separate daily lives we began arguing over stupid things and growing jealous of each other if we were spending time off camera from each other. With prom approaching I peer pressured myself into finding a date for prom who I ended up cheating on my Canadian girlfriend with. They found out through social media and my new prom date told her "sorry, he's mine." Canadian GF told me I was "dead to her" out of her temporary insanity from what I had done. I was so shocked to find out someone I loved could wish me dead just like that. So I stuck with my prom date for the next three years of my life. She changed my perception of women because I didn't expect sex to be shared so quickly as she did with me. I later found out she had medical problems that I had been told by western medicine is hereditary and incurable, so I felt I couldn't procreate with this woman for fear of passing her problems on to a child, but I longed to have a child of my own some day. So I stayed with her half heartedly, afraid to say I loved her after a while of dating because I knew I "couldn't" and she told me first and I didn't want to hurt her so in time I just went with it. A friend of mine convinced me to smoke some gateway drug which gave me a massive awakening that I was a miserable unhappy person with my life; that it was all my own fault and there is much more to life than we know. It also made me break down in tears and confess all my sins to my prom girlfriend of 3 years and end it. Even though I confessed that I had tried to cheat on her too (but couldn't achieve erection) and wanted to get out of the relationship she still wanted to be with me, but I knew I "couldn't" be with her. I was so ashamed of my past I felt unworthy of anyone, so I wouldn't let her be with me. It felt too co-dependent (just like my parents relationship haha). I also felt like I was dead inside by this point, reflecting back to the amount of pain I must have caused my first "Love" to have felt to say such a thing. She kept texting me occasionally throughout my relationship over the years with my prom date, saying she was sorry, and that she still fantasizes about me sexually which was like a roller coaster of confused emotions inside me.

At age 22-23 I was enjoying my single life freedom after having been tied down for the last 6 years with those 2 relationships. I tried a new approach to women where I told them honestly up front I don't want a relationship, just sex which to my surprise they were ok with. I saw my abs for the first time after just eating a little 'better', so I decided to take my fitness to the next level, and did a 3 month transformation bodybuilding contest where you had to impress judges with your before and after photos and you could win $100,000. I figured even if I lost I'd be in the healthiest shape of my life. So I did your typical 6 meals a day 7oz of lean fish steak or chicken each meal, 3 protein shakes daily, bust ass lift heavy for 3 months hard core. So in my life thus far I went from 200lbs worst shape, to 175 before the contest, to 160 after the contest. I looked amazing, I had the body I always desired. I was 160 leg pressing over a million of pounds total on leg day alone with all the reps combined. Around 800lbs for 2 sets of 10 was my max which blew my mind. But my Acne was still bad, joint pains, almost re-broke the ankle I broke in the car accident when I was 7. All of my friends were turning out to be untrustworthy, just using and hurting me emotionally. All of my Girl Friends with Benefits stopped talking to me after wanting to have a closed relationship with me. My business was failing, I lost my second side job at the Gym. I was becoming very depressed and a closet alcoholic, living at home with my parents again drinking shots of rum in my room alone crying, wishing someone would come take the drink out of my hand.

This led me to delve deeper into the health branch of the conspiracy world. I watched some documentaries such as 'Forks Over Knives', 'Cowspiracy', 'The Great Culling; Our Water', 'Fat Sick and Nearly Dead', etc. Needless to say, I went Raw Vegan overnight! I stopped eating processed anything, sugar, dairy, wheat, meat, alcohol; I dropped from 160-130lbs! I soon discovered Jesus and Mary's Divine Truth Channel which I gravitated towards immediately. I listened a little skeptical at first but it didn't take long before I was like OMG it's really him. Who the hell's going to believe me (the Atheist) of all people to find Jesus! LOL I still get a kick out of the irony. But I didn't care, I watched the full 'Welcome' playlist and almost all of the old material up to the new stuff in order relishing the wisdom I was receiving. I also discovered Abraham Hicks who brought me to a crossroads where I knew either way of living could work, but gravitated towards Jesus in the end, finding staying happy 24/7 and dismissing the negative to be impossible as Hicks tries to teach.

I've only felt Gods love a few times in the past year or so but it's enough to confirm this is the way to go. So that brings me to you guys! I'm looking forward to meeting new friends who are awake to the fact that there is a God, since I seem to know hardly anyone who has a real connection. Also to be able to discuss Jesus and Marys teachings finally! I understand the "no comments" on the videos with the internet trolls out there these days but man, we need to discuss this! It's a huge breath of fresh air to be able to find your forum here for that purpose; look forward to getting to know and sharing truth with you guys! Thanks if you read my whole long introduction as to how I came to find God, I tried to keep it short. Namaste!

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Re: Hello from Florida!

Post by Nicky » Mon Jan 11, 2016 3:46 pm

Hi Dom

Welcome to the forum mate. I hope you enjoy spending time here and hopefully learning more about Divine Truth in the process.

Nice to meet you.

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Re: Hello from Florida!

Post by Allegedly Dom » Mon Jan 11, 2016 8:00 pm

For sure, thanks man!

I had a huge revelation last night with God. I made a list of EVERY single girlfriend or girl that showed interest in me since kindergarten that I could think of and what details I could remember about them and noticed a repeating pattern since the very first one of shame, embarrassment, and emotional pain. Then I wrote a list for each of my parents on where this shame and embarrassment type of emotions came from and it was all to do with a feeling of not being good enough from lack of attention and such, and that my girlfriends wouldn't measure up to what my parents would approve of. Also having been publicly humiliated or embarrassed by my mom a lot. And being told not to cry by both parents is why I couldn't feel this. So last night I realized the error was on my side and I've been the cause of all the pain in my relationships which started to seem like I was punishing these girls for the way my mom treated me and I broke down in tears hard. I prayed to God to let me feel it every time I had a break in between crying and just more and more tears came and I cried harder and harder for probably 2-3 hours. I was able to connect the dots between so many other aspects of my life as well!

I also realized I've been lying to myself still to this day every time I say that I "Love and accept myself 100% right now" because man, I was angry at myself for what I did, that I've been hiding it as well and I could see so much sadness and hurt inside my soul; I could hardly look myself in the mirror last night and every time I could finally lift my head to do so just more tears streamed harder. This obviously leads to my problems of feeling unworthy of things from money to love from God and makes me see no wonder my soul mate is no where to be found yet lol... I've got a lot of work to do.

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